It all start with your ego. Ego comes, it ruins everything and it causes anything you didn't wan't.
Sadness & tears bravely takes your soul in the middle of your sleepless night, causes pain on your head, your heart, and suddenly you just lose your idea how to end this kind of fucked up situation.
I'll tell you it hurts. It really hurts me a lot to thinking what I did was wrong, what I did is like a bad moron seeking for happiness yet fallen into a deepest black hole inside of my heart. Honestly I think I really didn't have that screwed-up black hole before all this happened.
So I'm gonna tell you again that sometimes, bad things happen. And sometimes, it is because of you. No one else in charge with. Only you. And it's totally okay. We're all human. We made mistakes & that's okay 💗 You just have to accept yourself, forgive yourself & trying your best not to walking into the same wall. I know it's not simple as what I write or what you read. But trust me.. time will heal everything, but only you can choose whether you want to be totally healed or not. So you'll choose the time. You can always choose anything for your own happiness! You deserve to be happy in this world, never let your brain tell you otherwise.
I've forgiven my self, and if you read this article and feeling a 'lil bit relevance, I just want to tell you it's 7 a.m on a Saturday, I am now living my morning full of smile & happiness filled in my heart, my soul & everything in between. I choose to be happy, and you should too! 😊😉💖
